Life and Death...

This thanksgiving I found out my sister is most likely going to have her baby within the next two weeks which is really exciting. His name is going to be Levi Cole Hilton and I think everyone in the family (especially his brother) is excited to meet him. But on the sad side... on thanksgiving day my grandpa pulled my sister aside and told her that he might not make it to christmas. =[ we all told him that he is going to live a lot longer than that. He has been really sick lately but I hope that he said that just out of frustration from the pain and not from the doctors telling him thats the case. I wish he didnt have to suffer though. =[ so this december definately will have some happiness in it with a new life begining but theres the chance of sadness with a great life possibly ending. blah. sorry its such a sad blog

Haircuts

I finally got y hair cut... its soo short.. for me anyways. i cant even put it in a pony tail. =[ haha. ive had mixed responses about it. Some people miss my long hair. Other people say its a change for the better and I look more mature. Then some like how light it is and others like it darker. I think i want it a little darker. Eh. Its just hair. If i decide to change it... it always grows back.

Hair... It can always grow back

I want to get my hair cut. Its time for change. not just in my hair style but i really just want to change it. Its long and gets in my way and blah. Plus I attract the wrong type of people. Maybe if I cut my hair and look older or more mature, better guys or mature guys will like me. Plus Ill be 21 in december.... change just seems good right now.... any ideas?

I < / 3 NY

I cant wait to leave! Im applying tonight at Baltimore International College so that I can leave this state and persue a dream of mine. Becoming a pastry chef. I want to make all the pretty wedding cakes an yummy candy that I see on food network. So im applying at BIC for their associates degree in baking and pastry and who knows I may eventually go on to get my bachlors in culinary management. But all I know is if I could I would be out of this state by spring.

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My friend is sad or grumpy or something today. Just not in a good mood. It makes me sad because I dont know how to help him. I think he should let me know whats wrong so I can try to make him smile. =/

Snow...

Its pretty on the trees and grass and swirling lightly in the air, but I hate it when its on the roads. It makes me angry and gives me anxiety because I am always scared Im going to get in a car accident even if I go very slow. And I hate having to wake up super early so that I can drive slow and make it on time where im going. Its just frustrating.

Other than the snow something that frustrates me is college. Not like classes and friends because I actually like school. What bothers me is when I went to the admissions, registrar and center for advicement to figure out how to be a part of their new hotel and resort program tied with paul smith college and none of them knew what I was talking about. They had no advice for me and sent me round in circles. Their best answer is that I have to apply at paul smith itself first. which is going to suck because its going to be that much harder to get into classes for the spring which I had been planning on all semester.... Im thinking im gonna go somewhere else now. Maybe Baltimore... Any ideas?

Birthday Card for a friend

I made a card for my friend Tony this weekend.. I mentioned it in a previous blog I think. Anyways I think it turned out awesome.... it had to be chopped up in pics in order for me to get close enough to see the details but here it is:

So Tired...

I havent had much luck with sleeping lately. I think its because of stress with how much I need to get done and not having that much time to accomplish it. I just got done taking a spanish exam and I literally was falling asleep as I was reading it. Normally Im one of the first out of class on exam days and today I was one of the few left at the end. Not because the exam was hard but because I could not keep my eyes open. What sucks even more is that I have to work until 1130 tonight and wont be getting home until after midnight tonight just to wake up and work at 8am the next morning. Something exciting that I am doing however is making a birthday card for a friend. I hope they like it. I will post pictures after it is finished and given to them because I think they know my blogger address and dont want to ruin the suprise. well Im gonna go take a nap on a friends couch before class. Enjoy your day.

Rainy days =[

They are cold and depressing. But on the bright side my friend Whit showed me pics that she took of me at the begining of the semester for her photo class. They are pretty neat and I asked her for a copy. This is all I have for now of them though:

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Im not sure what to write but I know I have to write on here as much as possible. Making a webpage is very difficult. Well its not very difficult, just a pain in the butt to remember everything. and I definately get frustrated when I forget something as little as a > or I add a space when there shouldnt be and then a whole section of my page doesnt show up. its frustrating. haha. Well thats all for now. sorry its short but I really dont know what to talk about. I dont feel good and Im going to take a nap.
Sweet dreams

Oh Politics.....

I hate politics. Im sorry if people think im unpatriotic for not voting today but I absolutely hate politics. Im not registered to vote and thats ok by me. I've already been yelled at by people coming into work, family and friends for not choosing to vote but even if I did register to vote today... I wouldn't know who to vote for. Sure lots of people are for Obama but on the other hand a lot of people I know are telling me I should vote for McCain..... oh and I've also heard how they are both terrible choices but to choose McCain because he is the "lesser of two evils." Well I hate politics and avoid the conversations at all costs. So I dont watch the news about the candidates, I dont discuss their goals or plans, I dont pay attention when either the Presidential candidates or their running mates have a debate, and therefore have no choice over who is better what so ever. So.... even if I were to vote today (had I been registered) my vote wouldnt be based on their plans and what would be better for me and my family... It would be based on what other people tell me I should do. I would be voting for whoever my family said is better because I dont have an opinion.


Everyone who voted.... Good for you hopefully you all make a good decision, but stop telling me I have to go vote... Im not going to... and it will not be bringing me down at all.

have a good day.